There is a new source for Kabbalah learning, Kabbalah University.
I had been hesitant: it must be just another scam to get my money. But finally I gave in, and bought it. It’s $42 a month.
There are daily lectures and the experience is phenomenal. I have experienced an immersion like never before.
I have learned stuff I didn’t even know I should ask, even though it was about something I experienced.
For example I have been, from time to time, experiencing extreme anxiety, pressure, restlessness, almost a physical pain. It has nothing to do with what ‘s going on in my life, it has nothing to do with my health, obviously it is something non-physical. I decided that it was a good thing, but had no good explanation, why it would be a good thing.
I found out that the Light always wants to give you more than you want to receive. That creates a lack of vessel to receive the light. The pressure is an indication of that.
So what do I normally do when this happens? I play computer games, talk incessantly on the phone, all “satan” stuff, not in the right direction. OK? So what should I do to grow a vessel big enough to receive all the light that is coming to me?
I don’t quite have an answer, but one thing is sure: deflecting the light isn’t going to grow my vessel…
On Saturday, January 3rd, at exactly 5:42 pm my nose started to bleed. By the time I grabbed something to hold to my nose I was soaked in blood. Red, thick, beautiful blood. Scary. My inner eyes projected a scenario: me, on the floor, dead, in a pool of blood.