{"id":482,"date":"2009-04-25T11:52:08","date_gmt":"2009-04-25T16:52:08","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kabbalahchick.com\/blog\/?p=482"},"modified":"2017-04-09T09:43:47","modified_gmt":"2017-04-09T14:43:47","slug":"feel-well-to-do-well-part-3","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kabbalahchick.com\/blog\/482\/","title":{"rendered":"Feel Well To Do Well Part 3"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"drown\"<\/a>I spent 1-3 hours with a very negative person for seven months in the very near past. I hated about 60-70 percent of every conversation. My attitude was that there is an opportunity lurking there, and I’d find it. That attitude was encouraged by my teachers.<\/p>\n

At the end of the seven months I noticed that my financial situation had started to go south when I started that relationship. I was now at a point when I was not going to be able to pay my rent…<\/p>\n

A normally hidden thought at that point surfaced in this person’s speaking, and I realized that they were my enemy, and a downer all along. They were in it for what was in it for them, and made sure there was nothing in it for me. They didn’t like me, didn’t care for me, compared me with themselves and they always came out on top, thought it unfare that I would make more money than them.<\/p>\n

In that moment of clarity I saw that in those seven months I had handed over the control over my thoughts and life to this person, and it was time to take it back.<\/p>\n

I also noticed that it had been a pattern in my life. I could see that there was my desire to “lift up” other people, even if they weren’t particularly interested. I call that caretaking in another post of mine… (Studies show that when a higher vibration person tries to lift up the vibration of another person, instead of the desired outcome, the lowest common denominator wins. Other studies show that in sado-masochistic relationship the real control is in the hand of the masochist, not the sadist, like it seems on the surface.)<\/p>\n

You notice that you are not energized by the relationship. You notice that your health, your energy level, your self-love, your connection with your purpose is getting weaker and harder to maintain.<\/p>\n

In hindsight the same thing happened with my male cat. He wanted food, he wanted shelter (when he wanted it), but he didn’t want me. He didn’t choose me.<\/p>\n

When I look at my relationships (male\/female) I see the pattern: it begins with me relentlessly pursuing a stable and steady connection where I am the contributor\/giver, thus I have the upper hand. They begrudgingly protecting their right to maintain independence. I increase the pressure. At some point we are best friends. I continue the domination with giving and giving and giving. At some point I catch myself, and break off the relationship.<\/p>\n

That’s been the movie of my life. Quite disgusting, if you ask me. And makes for a lonely, unfulfilled life.<\/p>\n

Luckily to me, this time I had my eyes open and my fingers pointing at myself. This time I have taken 100% responsibility for my part in this mess.<\/p>\n

This fact, having taken responsibility for my role as a director\/writer of this movie, I have given myself a chance to write and direct movies that are more fulfilling and satisfying than this repeated nightmarish ego-driven script.<\/p>\n

Since the awakening and breakoff, my financial situation is looking up, I am more in touch with my soul’s desire and things unpredictable and delicious are starting to show up in my space.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I spent 1-3 hours with a very negative person for seven months in the very near past. I hated about 60-70 percent of every conversation. My attitude was that there is an opportunity lurking there, and I’d find it. That attitude was encouraged by my teachers. At the end of the seven months I noticed … <\/p>\n

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